Roj ratre ghumer bori kheye ghumate hoi. Na khele, kichutei ghum ase na. Ar chok-ta ektu lege elei, emon sob swopno dekhte suru kori je bhoi ar atonke ghumer ghore buuuu..buuuu…awaz korte thaki. Tokhon goutam, amar swami, deke dei amake. Aj-o tai holo. Goutam amake deke tule dile, ami dhok dhok kore ek glass jol kheye, drawing room-e ese sofa-te boslam. Ghorite dekhlam rat 12-30 baje. Goutam-o uthe elo, ese amar pase boslo, bollo, ‘eber ek jon doctor dekhano dorkar, ebhabe beshi din cholle, tumi osustho hoye porbe.’ ami ekta notun deep neck body tight sleeveless silker nighty pore chilam. Goutam amar buker dike khanik takiye amake kache tene nilo. Tarpor onek ador kore, sofate sui-e amake sextually upobhog korlo. Oke bollam, ‘tumi sute jao, ami jachhi ektu pore’. Sofate chup chap bose thaklam ar tokhon sei sob purano diner kotha gulo bhor kore, mathate kilbil korte laglo.
Ami neha, neha sen, boyes 30, 3 bochor-r ekta futfute meye rima-r ma. Bor engineer, export import-r business, sukhi sansar. Aj ami sukhi, kintu sara jibon amar opor diye je jhor boye giyeche ta jano amar kono boro satru-r o na hoi. Amar jonmo-tai to rohosso, ekhono jani na satti amar baba ke? Jake baba bole daki, se je amar baba noi, eta jenechilam satya kakar kach theke. Satya kaka amar mamar barir chakor, ma ar satyo kaka eksonge-i boro hoyeche. Ma-r biyer por sei je amader bari esechilo, tarpor amake kole pithe kore manush kora theke suru kore amar biye porjonto sob ei satya kaka. Amake praner cheyao bhalo base.
Amar baba dr atonu bose, ekjon namkora orthopedic surgeon. Ar amar ma, mrs baby bose, ekjon oporup sundori mahila. Emon ruper chota, je kono purush manush onake bed partner korer jonne jibon porjonto baji rakhte pare. Tai oner jibone onekei potongor moto ure ese pure chai hoye giyeche. Kintu tar jonne ma-ke to dos diye lav nei. Ma to swavabik sustho ekta sansar-i cheyechilo, kintu holo koi? Satyo kakar kache sunechi ma naki fulsojja-r retei bujhte pare baba impotant. Hostel life-e drug addicted hoye ei obostha. Amar dadu thakuma-o baba-r sexual disability–r kotha janten na. Baba nijer okhomota lukiye ma-ke biye korechilo. Baper bari ar sosur barir sonman-r kotha chinta kore ma kintu nijer bhagyo-ke mene niyechilo. Babar sange-i thakto, ar sokol-ke dekhato swami niye koto sukhi. Ar baba-o ma-r ei obhinoy-e kono apotti na kore, nijer chamber ar nursing home niye basto hoye porlo. Amar jonmer por ma nijeke puropuri sansar theke soriye nilo. Social work, kitty party, bondhu bandhob, ei sob niye nijeke basto rakhte laglo, hoito babar opor obhimane ba nijer moner kosto dhakte. Choto bela theke baba ma-ke kache na peleo, satyo kaka kono din sei obhab amake bujhte dei ni. Amar school-e jayoer samoy ready kora theke suru kore chan korono, khayano, ghum parano, bikale park-e barate niye joyoa, sob satyo kaka. Tai to ekhono majhe majhe mone sondeho jage, satyo kaka-i amar baba noi to?
Tokhon ami class ii-te pori. Boyes koto ar hobe? Ei 6 ba 7. Sokal 8-ta te school bus asto, tarpor bari phirte phirte bela 1-30. Hoito aro kichu age bari pouchano jeto, kintu pherer samoy roj school bus-ta by-pass dhore asto ar sokol-ke namiye sob sese amake namato. Ek din ki holo, bus-ta by-pass diye phirche, sobai neme giyeche, ami bus-e eka, hotath jhakuni diye bus bondho hoye galo. Bus driver subho uncle, madan uncle, mane bus-r khalasi-ke bollo ekta mechanic dhore ante. Madan uncle bus-r sob janla dorja bondho korte korte amake bollo, ‘kono bhoi nei neha baby, ami jabo ar asbo. Tumi chupti kore bose thako, driver dada thaklo’. Madan uncle chole gele subho uncle driver-r seat theke uthe amar pase ese boslo. Tarpor amake bollo, ‘khub khide peyeche to? Amar kache to kichu nei, lolipop achhe, etai khao’, bole or pant-r chain khule amar chotto mukhe or kalo mushko bara-ta dhukiye dilo. Tarpor amar pete lolipop thik galo ki na dekhar bhan kore amake seat-e suiye diye school dress-r bhetor diye hat dhukiye amar pete hat bolate bolate, ‘ea ma, tomar pet-r niche to kete giyeche’, bole amar panty khule dilo. Pa duto jor kore phank kore amar hisi-r jaiga-te or mota angul dhukiye narte laglo. Ami batha-te kante laglam, ar tokhoni madan uncle ese amar panty poriye diye bollo ami jano ei ghotona kauke na boli. Erpor amake bari pouchye dilo. Boro hoye bujhechilam, bus kharap hoi ni, ora plan kore amar opor atyachar korto, eta ek rokom rog, perversion bole. Por por koyedin roj ora ek bhabe bus dar koriye dujone amar sange osobbhota korto. Ek din to madan uncle or bara-ta amar nunu-te dhokate chesta korechilo. Ei bhabe cholte cholte ami bhoi-e school jete chatam na. Ekdin school theke ele, satyo kaka chan korachhe bathroom-e. Amar pet-r niche saban lagonor jonye hat ditei ami batha-te kokiye uthlam. Tarpor satyo kaka, ki hoyeche jiges korle, ami kante kante bus-r ghotona bollam. Satyo kaka ma-ke sob janalo. Kono rokom janajani na kore, ma school principal-r sange dekha kore amake onyo bus-r bondobosto kore dilo.
Dhire dhire boro hote laglam,class vi-e pori. Aste aste sorire ekta poriborton suru holo, buk-ta phulte laglo, bogol-e halka kalo chul gojalo, peter niche-o tin kona shape-e khoiri chul dekha galo. Buk-ta jokhon forer moto phulte laglo, tokhon prothom dike khub batha hoto. Aste sate batha-ta kome galo. Burdwan district-r ek prottonto grame amader bosot bari, sekhane amar dadu, thakuma, kaka kakima ar oder ekmatro chele raju tkake. Okane je hetu bhalo kono school nei, tai raju dada kolkata chole elo, amader bari theke porasuna korbe bole. Khurtuto bhai raju, class viii-e bhorti holo, amar theke matro 2-bochorer boro, tai o asate ami ekjon dada ar bondhu pelam. Ekdin sokale ami ar raju drawing room-e bose daba khelchi. Amar porone ekta sleeveless frock ar raju barmoda-r opore genji poreche. Ma to saradin social work ar party niye basto thake, barite thake-i na, kintu sedin dupure amader barite ma ar tar bandhobi-der kitty party chilo. Tai ranna banna supervise korer jonye aj ar ma baire jai ni. Ma barite thakle satyo kaka chara sobai totostho hoye thake, ma-r emon personality, je sokole bhoye bhoye thake, ei bujhi boka khai. Daba khelte khelte, dada ekta chal diyeche, ar ami gharer opor du hat tule bhabchi, ki kore seta counter kora jai. Emon samoy ma sekhane elo, amar samne kichukhon daralo, tarpor bollo, ‘neha, ami bed room-e achi. Tumi khelar por amar sange dekha koro, important kotha achhe’.
Ma-r ghore giye dekhi, ma lal rong-r silk-r house coat pore sofa-te bose ekta magazine-r pata ultachhe. Oi dress-e ki sundor lagche ma-ke dekhte, thik jano durga protima. Amake pase boste isara korlo, tarpor bollo, ‘tokhon kheler samoy tumi hat opore tolate lokhho korlam tomar bogole chul hoyeche, nischoi panty-r nicheo hoyeche. Aj ami nijer-ta clean korbo, sange tomakeo dekhiye debo ki kore clean korte hoi, jate future-e tumi nije korte paro’. Ma amar dress khule puro nanga kore dilo, tarpor bathroom theke hair removing cream ene bogol-e ar pet-r niche lagiye diye wait korte bollo. Eber ma nijer house coat khule bogol ar du thigh-r majhe cream lagiye, pa duto ektu phank kore, sofa-te bose magazine porte laglo. Ei prothom ekjon purno boyeska narir nogno sarir dekhlam. Ma-ke ki sundor lagche dekhte, jemon rup, temon-e gayer rong. Ichhe korchilo ma-r kole jhapiye pore oi buk duto-ke dumre muchre dei, ar du thigh-r majhe amar mukh dhukiye ma-r gayer gontho ta nijer sorire dhukiye ni.
Minute 15 por ma amake niye bathroom-e dhuklo, amar bogol ar pet-r nich-e jol diye poriskar kore dilo. Dekhlam okhane ar ek-tao chul nei. Tarpor ekta stool-r opor bose, ma amar gaye saban lagiye snan korate laglo. Bhoye bhoye ma-ke jiges korlam ami ma-r ogulo pariskar kore debo kina! Ma hese onumoti dilo. Ami mayer chul gulo jol dhele poriskar kore dilam, tarpor amar chotto hat duto diye ma-r gaye saban lagate laglam. Buke hat diye dekhlam ki norom ar chok choke oi jaigata. Ma-ke uthe darate bole, ami ma-r oi hisir jaiga-te bhetore hat dhukiye saban lagalam, mone holo jano ekta slippery guha. Eber ma-r pichone giye pacha-te saban lagiye, poder phuto-teo angul dhokalam. Hoito aj amake kache peye ma-r anondo hochillo, ar bhalo-o lagchilo, tai ma kono apotti korchilo na. Snan sere ami dress kore niche neme elam, ar mone holo jano ami aj koto boro hoye giyechi.
Koyek mas por…..gorom kaler dupur. Bari phanaka, keu nei, satyo kaka nijer ghore ghumachhe. Amar bhison bore lagche, bhablam dada-r ghore giye ektu golpo kori. Dorja-ta bhejano chilo, dada-ke chomke debo bole dorja aste aste khule pa tipe tipe ghore dhuklam. Ami sarol, santo meye hoye-o, dada-r sange bondhur moto mistam, kintu jantam o khub paka chele. Dada khate suye dewal-r dike mukh kore ek mone ki jeno korche, kache giye dekhi, o pant theke nunu-ta bar kore ota niye khela korche. Kintu mathate elo na nunu-ta eto boro holo ki kore? Jante khub koutohol holo, ballam, ‘ei dada, ki korchis re tui? Tor nunu-ta eto boro holo ki kore re?’. Chomke uthe dada thik kore pant-ta pore nilo, tarpor amake boste isara kore bollo, ‘o tui bujhbi na. Ar ki bolli, nunu? Dur boka, chotoder otake nunu bole, ami to boro hoye giyechi, etake bara bole. Uttejona hole khara hoi, anyo samoy netiye thake’. Amar sex somporke tokhon kono idea-i hoi ni, bhablam dada amar theke boro to, tai anek jane. Or kach theke sikhe nite hobe sobkichu, mukh-ta nichu kore ballam, ‘dada, tui koto janis re, amake-o sikhiye dibi? Ami to nam gulo-o jani na re’. Bhulei giyechilam je bore lagche bole dada-r ghore ludo khelbo bole esechi. Ludo khelar kotha bolate dada bollo, ‘son neha, aj ekta mojar khela khelbi? Khela-ter nam ‘doctor & patient. Tui rogi sajbi ar ami hobo daktar, kemon? Ar tui jante chaichili to, tai daktari korte korte toke deher sex organ gulo-r bangla nam ar kaj bole debo’. Mone sondeho holo khelata nischoi boroder, tobu eto koutohol holo je khelte raji holam.
Ami khate bose, dada chair-ta tene niye amar samne boslo. Tarpor….
Dada: ‘neha debi, apni relaxed mood-e ekhane suye porun, ar bolun apner ki problem hochhe?
Ami: ‘doctor, emni kono problem nei, kintu amar buke oi je duto phola phola jaige hoyeche, okane khub batha hoto’.
Dada: ‘bujhechi, bhalo kore dekhte hobe, kintu apni jake buk bollen, ota holo mai. Chelera oi mai duto niye khela kore, hat diye tepe, mukh diye chose, dant diye kamrai, bla…bla…bla…eber dekhi, apner mai duto kimono hoyeche? Ei bole dada amar frock-r nich diye hat dhukiye amar mai duto-te hat bolate laglo. Amar sorir-ta kemon kore uthlo, kintu besh bhalo-i lagchilo. Dada eber frock-ta khule diye, mukh-ta namiye ene, ek hat diye ekta mai tipte laglo ar anyo mai-r nipple chuste suru korlo. Ami chok buje suye roilam.
Dada: ‘dekhlam neha debi apner mai duto, bhaloi baniyechen, besh norom ar tight, tobe ehkono puro toiri hoini. Apni roj amake diye mai duto massage koraben, dekhben batha chole jabe ar khub taratari boro-o hobe. Eber bolun apner nicher dike kono samossa achhe?
Ami: ‘hayn, amar hisi korer jaigate chul uthechilo, ma cream lagiye poriskar kore diye chilo. Tarpor dekchi abar okhane khoncha khoncha chul gojachhe, ar chulkachhe’.
Dada: ‘dekhun neha debi, apner oi hisi korer jaiga-ta ke bole gud, ar charpaser chul gulo holo bal. Apner gude duto phuto achhe, ekta hisi korer ar onyo-ta cheleder bara dhokaber jonne. Oi, gude bara dhukiye up down kora-ta ke bole choda chudi. Cheleder bara bojhen to? Age na dekhe thakle, amar-ta ektu nere chere dekhte paren. Kintu sabdhan, besi narle kintu bara-r bhitor theke cream, mane ros beriye asbe. Asun eber apner gud-ta examine kore dei’.
Ami: ‘doctor, apner bara-ta abar khara hoye giyeche. Ota pant theke ber kore amake dekhaben ekber? Ami besi narbo na’.
Dada or bara-ta ber kore amar hate dhoriye dilo, ami bara-ta tipe tipe, chamra chariye barar mundu-ta bhalo kore dekhlam. Khub ichhe korchilo, candy-r moto khara bara-ta chuse ektu swad nete, bhorosa pelam na. Dada edike amar panty tene khule diyeche, ar ami totally naked hoye or samne suye achhi. Amar pa duto aro ektu phank kore, dada amar gude-r bhetor mukh dhukiye jib diye chat-te laglo, uttejona-te amar sarir kanpte laglo. Gude-r bhetore jib dhukiye dada emon ghorate laglo je amar mone holo dada-r mukhe-i bujhi hisi kore phelbo. ‘uuuuu…,aaaahhhh….ore dada re, chere de amake, gude sursuri lagche, amar sorir ki rokom sirsir korche, amar hisi pachheeeee…..’ bole chitkar korte laglam.
Dada: ‘dekhun neha debi, ekhon ami apner dada noi, ami ekjon doctor. Ar hayn, apnar jeta hisi bole mone hochhe, ota hisi noi, apnar guder jol. Cheleder jemon bara theke ros beroi, meye-rao temni guder jol khosai. Jai hok, eber ami apnake injection debo, apner gude’.
Injection-r kotha sune amar pile chomke uthlo, injection-e amar bhison bhoi. Ei boyeseo, khete na chaile, satyo kaka injection laganor bhoi dekhai.
Ami: ‘doctor, injection ami nebo na, needle photale khub lage, ami jani’.
Dada: ‘bhoi nei neha debi, ei syringe-r needle bhonta. Asole syringe holo amar bara-ta, ar ota-i apner gud-e dhukiye chudbo apnake’.
Ami: ‘ta apner syringe-e osud koi, doctor?
Dada: ‘dekhben, apnake chudlei bara theke jet-r moto birjo beriye asbe, ar seta apner gud-r joler sange mishe pete bachha toiri hobe’.
Dada or pant-ta khule, amar opor chepe, or bara-ta, gayer jore amar gude dhokanor chesta korlo. Amar gud-e prochondo batha korte laglo, mone holo gud-ta jeno phete jabe. Dada-ke ek dhakka diye soriye diye uthe boslam, ‘ami ar khelbo na’ bole jama kapor pore niche chole gelam.
Test exam hoye giyeche, ek mas bade madhyamik. Ekhon sudhu test paper theke bibhinyo school-r question paper solve korer pala. Amra koyek jon mile bijoy sir-r barite mathematics-e private tuition korte jetam. Sei batch-e 3-jon chele chilo, ekjoner nam apu, paka jhanu chele, kintu amar sange khub bhab chilo, or sukh dukhyo amake share korto. Ekdin tuition-r por apu amake bollo, ‘neha, amader barite chol, golpo ar bohut mosti kora jabe. Baba ma dujon-i baire, bari ekdom phanka. Kal ratre ami paser ghor-r key hole diye dekhechi, baba ar ma ki ekta cinema chaliye jorajori kore bose dekhche. Chol amra giye movie-ta dekhi’. Roj roj porer eto chap barche, tai ektu relaxed hobo mone kore apu-r sange oder bari gelam. Apu amake or baba ma-r bed room-e niye galo, jekhane dvd ar tv achhe. Khate bose dvd on korlam, ‘chaliya’ name ekta hindi cinema arombho holo, ek jubok juboti-r misti prem-r golpo. Oa ma, khanik badei dekhi nayok, nayika-r sob jama kapor khule, bichana-te suiye body massage kotre laglo. Apu-r sange bose cinema-ta dekhte lojja korchilo, kintu uthte-o parchilam na, er por ki hoi dekhar probol ichha jagte suru korlo.
Apu amar aro kache sore ese, amar ghare hat rekhe cinema dekhche, pant-r dike ek jholok takiye dekhi, ota tanbu-r akar dharon koreche. Bujhlam, cinema dekhe sabhabik bhabe-i apu-r uttejona hochhe, ar ami-i ba kom kise, amar sara sorir-e jano keu electric shok dichhe. Apu amar ghare je hat-ta rekhechilo, ami seta-r opor amar hat-ta rekhe amar mai-r opor chepe dhorlam, kintu o cinema-ta etotai mogno hoye gilchilo je, amar mai-r sporso ter-i pelo na. Moja korer chole amar anyo hat diye or pant-r chain-ta aste aste khule, underwear-r opor diye or khara bara-ta chepe dhorlam. Apu chomke uthe amar dike takalo, tarpor amake joriye dhore elopathari chumu khete laglo, ar amar mai duto chotkate laglo. Ami nijeke chariye neber bartho cheta kore bollam, ‘ei apu, ki korchis tui? Lagche amar, char amake. Ei rokon korle ar toder bari asbo na kintu’.
Ke kar kotha sone? Apu pagoler moto ek duronto khela-i mete uthlo. Amar sara sorir-e ador korte korte suiye diye, amar top ar jeans pant khule dilo, nijer shirt pant-o khule phello. Ekhon amar porone khali bra panty, ar o underwear pore achhe. Ami-o eber ektu ektu kore uttegito hoye porlam, bujhlam oke badha dite parbo na, kintu lajja-te du hat diye amar mai duto dhaka deyer bartho chesta korte laglam. Ekbar tv-r dike takiye dekhlam sekhane jor kodome choda chudi suru hoye giyeche. Apu nijer somosto sokti diye amake japte dhore amar bra panty tene khule dilo, pore nijer underwear-ta tene namiye khater pase chure dilo. Ami ba apu, dujoner-i etai prothom saririk milon, karo-r age choda chudir experience nei. Tobuo dekhlam o amar thekeo anari, kono foreplay charai, or bara-ta amar gude dhokanor chesta korlo, kintu oti uttegona-te gud-r phuto khunje pachhe na, elopathari dhakka marche. Amar gud-ta tokhon bhije job job korche, or bara-ta hat diye dhore amar gud-r phutor mukhe rakhlam. Ektu chap detei pochat kore, bhije gud-r modhye apu-r bara-r matha-ta dhuke galo. Aro jore chap dite thaklo apu, kintu bara ar bhetore dhukchilo na, adhoirjo hoye apu bole uthlo, ‘are neha, tor gud-ta ki tight mairi, koto chesta korchi, kichutei ar dhukche na re’. Mone porlo kon ekta boi-te porechilam, meye-der gude naki ekta porda thake, prothom ber choda chudir samoy seta phatale tobe naki bara puro bhetore dhoke, ki jano ekta nam bole, sotichod bodhhoi. Apu-ke bollam, jore niswas niye gayer jore ekta thap marte, jemon bola, temni kaj, o tai korlo. Bara-ta bhetore dhuktei, ami jontronate chot-fot kore kokiye uthe chitkar korte laglam, ar takiye dekhi amar gud diye top top kore rokto beriye bichana-ta bhijiye dichhe. Apu-ke thela diye sorate chesta korlam, kintu bagh ter siker-r rokto-r swad prothom peyeche, charbe keno? Oi abosthatei apu or bara-ta gud-r bhetor up down kore thapate laglo, ekhon amar ar batha laglo na, ektu ektu kore bhaloi lagte suru korlo, oke joriye dhore pacha tule thap khete laglam. Kichu pore apu amar kaner kache phis phis korlo, ‘neha re, ami ar dhore rakhte parchi na, eber hoito beriye jabe’. Ami bollam, ‘apu, bhuleo jano guder bhitor tor birjo phelish na, sorbonash hoye jete pare. Tui sesh samoy bara-ta ber kore baire phel please’. O tai korlo, khosate laglo or kochi kochi gorma gorom sujir payeser moton birjo. Bara-r mukh theke pichkirir moto beriye ese bhoriye dilo amar pet theke buk porjonto, tarpor dujonei klanto hoye bichana-te goriye porlam. Jibone prothom bar chodon kheye tripti pelam, poriskar hoye, jama pant pore barir dike rowana dilam.
Madhyamik pass korlam, kintu amader school-e xi-xii na thakate anyo jaigate bhorti hote holo. Amar result bhalo na hoyate kolkata-r kono school ba college-e chance pelam na. Kalyani-te bhorti hote holo, kintu sekhane hostel accommodation pelam na. Ma-r ek bandhobir meye-r kalyani-te biye hoyeche, tar bor kalyani university-r professor. Ma sekhane amar paying guest hoye thaker bondobosto kore dilo. Weekend-e bari astam, baki kodin okhane thake college kortam. Ma-r bandhobi-r meyer nam sampa, ami boudi bole daki, boyes 26/27 hobe, 3 bochor holo biye hoyeche, ekhono bachha hoi ni. Boudi amake khub-i sneho koren, ami college gele ghorta guchiye rakhen, jama kapor keche iron kore rakhen, ar rate ek songe khowar samoy to bhaloi adda hoto, kichudiner modhye-i apni theke tumi hoye galo boudi. Thik-i cholchilo, hotath boudi-r bor-ke university theke, ek soptaho-r jonye, delhi pathalo ekta seminar attend korte. Boudi barite eka achhe, dinner table-e amake bollo, ‘neha, tomake ekta request korbo, jadi bhorsa dao. Ami ratre eka sute pari na, je kodin ami eka achi, tumi jodi amar sange bedroom-e sou’. Ami bollam, ‘eta abar ekta kaj holo? Bhaloi to, retre khub moja kore golpo kora jabe’.
Bedroom-e ami ar boudi ek sange sulam, dujoner poronei nighty. Ghumiye porechi, mone holo keu jano amar buke hat diye mai-te hat bolachhe. Bhoi peye dim light-r olpo alote dekhi boudi amar dike pas phire or ekta pa amar pete tule diye mai tipche. Bhablam, boudi afterall married lady, hoito bor pase achhe mone kore amar buke hat diye pheleche. Apu-r sange saririk somporko hoyer por, ami anek matured ekhon, swami stri-r sextual relation je ekta routine work, seta bhaloi sikhe giyechi. Tai mone mone muchki hese, boudi-ke disturb na kore, abar ghumanor chesta koelam. Chok-ta ektu lege eseche, mone holo boudi amar nighty-ta aste aste pa-r nich theke opore tulche. Khub koutohol holo, ghumer ghore boudi ki ki kore dekhar jonne, tai chup kore thaklam. Boudi amar nighty-ta puro tule peter kache joro kore rakhlo, tarpor hatriye panty khjhte thaklo. Ami ratre bra panty pore sui na, boudi jokhon bujhlo je panty nei, tokhon uthe bose amar pa duto choriye diye or mukh-ta namiye soja amar gude jib dhukiye dilo. Ebar amar sondeho holo, boudi etokhon ja ja korlo, ta ghumer ghore to noi. Or pase je ami suye achhi seta bujhei amar gaye hat diyeche. Ami bichanate uthe bose ek dhakka-te boudi-ke soriye diye bollam, ‘are are, ki suru korecho boudi? Tomake songo deber jonye sute elam ar tumi……..? Surute mone korechilam, tumi bujhi obhas bosoto amake dada bhebe ador korcho, kintu ta to noi? Chi chi…..’. Ar kichu bolar agei boudi hese uthlo ‘oah ma, tumi jege chile? Ami to mone korchilam tumi bujhi gobhir ghume mogno, tai ektu……kichu mone koro na bhai, biyer onek age thekei ami ekjon ‘bi’, je din theke tomake dekhechi se din thekei tomar opor amar nojor poreche. Tumi eto sundor dekhte, lov samlate parlam na bhai. Ja sasti debe matha pete nebo’. Ei bole boudi phunpiye kandte suru korlo. Ami ektu oprostut holam. School-e porer samoy anek foreign magazine porechi, ‘lesbian’ ba ‘gay’ ei sob somokami sobdo gulo jana chilo, kintu ‘bi’ word-ta andaz korlam, bi-sexual, mane purush ebong nari dujoner proti-i soman saririk akorson anubhob kore. Ar ei boudi tai, nijer swami charao meyeder sange sahobas korete chai.
Boudi-ke eto gulo kotu kotha bole kharap lagchilo. Anek din ekhane thakte hobe, boudi-ke chotano thik hobe na. Boudi-r thutni-ta tule dhore choker jol muchiye diye bollam, ‘boudi rag koro na please, amar to emon kono experience nei, tai ghabriye giyechilam. Tumi chaile amake niye, tomar ja mon chai tai koro, kintu amake tomar okhane mukh lagate bolo na please’. Boudi-r mukh khusi-te ujjol hoye uthlo, natun uddome uthe light jalalo. Boudi nijer nighty khule puro nogno hoye, amake bachana-te suiye dilo, tarpor amar pase bose amar nighty-ta khule dilo. Amar lojja lagche, kintu kichu bollam na. Boudi-r chehara-ta bhalo kore lokhyo korlam, prorsa rong, sarir ektu motar dike. Boro boro mai, komor-ta besh patla, pacha chorano ar uchu, gud-ta kalo bal-e bhorti, kokhono shave kore bole mone holo na. Boudi prothome amar thont-e thont lagiye mukhe jib dhukiye anekkhon dhore chumu khelo. Tarpor amar mai gulo moida makher moto chotkalo, nipple chuslo, dant diye kamriye amar phorsa mai duto lal kore dilo. Eber niche neme amar naval point-e chumu khelo, jiv diye mukher lala jhoriye chete chete khelo. Amar sursuri lagchilo, boudi-r mukh-ta du hat diye tule dhorlam. Boudi tokhon amar gude-r dike nojor diye, ‘tomar ei clean shaved projapoti-r moto sundor gud-ta chuse ami tomar guder jol ber kore debo, kemon?, ei bole amar pa duto phank kore gud-r chera-ta du hat diye soriye, gud-r phuto-te mukh rekhe jiv-ta dhukiye dilo. Amar sorir-ta knepe uthlo. Boudi jib-ta onek bhitore chalan kore gud-r clitoris-e dhakka marlo, ar jib-ta bhetore jore jore narate thaklo. Ami uttejona-te aaaahhhh…… uuuuu……kore awaz korte laglam, ar boudi jib naranor speed toto barate laglo. Ar parchilam na dhore rakhte, ooooaaaahhhh…..awaz kore boudi-r mukhe-i gud-r jol chere dilam, boudi chok chok kore amar guder ros chete chete khete laglo, jano sitkale khejor gach-r ros khachhe. Discharge hoye gele ami netiye porlam, bhablam eber ghumiye porbo. Oah baba, se gure bali, boudi almari theke ekta box ber korlo, tate different size ar colour-r dildo rakha achhe. Sob soft rubber-r bara, konota nigro-der moto kuchkuche kalo, konota saheb-der moto dobdhobe sada. 7’’ theke 10’’ porjonto size, mota patla sob achhe. Boudi box theke ekta 10’’ lomba, 3’’ mota kalo bara ber kore amar komore fit kore dilo. Tarpor bollo, ‘tomar dada-r bara khub choto, matro 6’’ lomba, tai chude aram pai na. Tumi ei akhamba bara-ta diye aj amake chude dao, anek din aram pai ni. Amar ekta latest model-r automatic dildo achhe, tate vibrator achhe, bhetor theke birjo ber hoi, kal ba pore ek din tomar gude dhukiye tomake chude debo, dekhbe ki aram….’
Boudi pa choriye gud keliye suye porlo. Or oi kalo bal-r jungle-r modhye theke lal gud-ta beriye ache, jeno ekta bhoyanok color contrast. Boudi-r peter kache hatu gere nil down hoye boslam, dekhlam gud-ta ros-e bhije job job korche. Oi birat rubber-r bara-ta boudi-r guder mukhe ene chap detei hor hor kore dhuke galo bhetore. ‘ore amar chut marani nonod re, oi 10’’ bara diye amake chude gud-ta holhole kore de re, gud mere phatiye de. Tor oi bokachoda ma-r gud marano dada-r 6’’ nunu diye chudiye amar kono aram hoi na. Tui jore jore amake thap mar, aro jore, phatiye de amar gud. Je kodin tor oi harami dada na thake, tui amar bhatar hobi, roj amake chudbi, amio tor gud-r jol jhoriye debo. Ooooo… aaaaaa…neha re chod chod amake, mone hochhe diner bela-tei akase tara dekhi re…..’ khisti marte marte boudi or komor tule thap khete laglo, tarpor gud theke jol chere dilo. Amar ghum pachhilo, dildo khule ami suye porlam. Porer 6 din ek-i rokom bhabe roj ratre boudi amake niye notun notun khela-te mete uthlo.
Higher secondary pass korlam 2nd division-e. Amar ja marks, tate bhalo kono college-e chance pelam na. Capitation fees diye ma amake holdia-r ekta private college-e hotel management course-e bhorti kore dilo. Suru holo hostel life, ek bnadhon chara jibon jatra. College-e bhorti hober por ek mas dhore ja ragging chollo, mone hochillo hoito pora chere chole jabo. Senior meye-ra to botei, chele-ra porjonto meyeder hostel-e ese rag korto. Bathroom-e niye giye shower khule deya, deher statistics janano, bra panty-r size bola, pornography boi jore jore pora….ei gulo porjonto thik chilo. Kintu jedin ek senior sokoler samne amake diye tar bara chosate badhyo korlo, tokhon protigna korlam, ami senior hole oder-o chariye jabo. Ami meye hoye cheleder emon ragging korbo, ami hoye uthbo sober ‘king pin’, sorry ‘queen pin’.
Class suru hoye galo, jhor-r goti-te porasuna cholte thaklo. Age beauty parlor-e giye nijer rup chorcha kortam, ekhon samoy-r obhabe kichui hoi na. Chehara-ta kichudin-i rukhho hoye galo, mather chule jot poreche, bogol ba guder chul clean kora hoi na, hate boro boro nokh. Toto din-e ami college-e besh popular, gota 10/12 meye niye amar ekta bahini toiri hoyeche, ami tader leader. Amader group-ta ke chelera-o bhoi pai, keu amader tease korte sahosh pai na, eriye chole. Ei bhabe cholchilo, 2nd year-e uthlam, college-e fresher elo, jothariti suru holo ragging.
Amar group-r ekta meye ekdin khobor anlo, boy’s hostel-e ekjon notun mal eseche, khub sorol, ar take naki senior chelegulo prochondo rag korche. Ami ekta half pant ar genji pore, amar puro group niye boy’s hostel-e gelam. Amra ghore dhuktei besir bhag chele baire giye janla theke moja dekhte laglo. Giye dekhi cheletar porone sudhu ekta gamcha ulto kore porano achhe, mane gamcha-r gnit-ta pechone. Or hat-e ekta pornography boi dhoriye, jore jore porte boleche, ar porte porte jodi bara ektu khara hoi, tahole scale diye or bara-te marche. Sunlam cheleta-r nam jhatu lal biswas, bari egra, jate napit, bap thakurda-r jat babsa chul kata. Ei cheleta porasuna-te bhalo bole or bap jetha jomi jaiga bikri kore oke ekane porte pathiyeche. Amake samne peye jhatulal amar pa joriye dhore kante kante bollo, ‘didi, amake bachan. Ami gramer chele, porte esechi. Apni ja bolben, ami tai korbo, kintu amake marben na doya kore’.
Keno jani na, amar ek bochor ager kotha mone pore galo, amake diye ekta chele or bara chusiye chilo, aj ami sodh nebo. ‘jhatulal, tumi to jate napit, amar hat-r nokh gulo kat-te parbe?’ bole chardide takiye dekhlam sob chele meye chup chap moja dekher jonye toiri. Jhatulal shanto bhabe bollo, ‘didi, eta ar emon ki kaj, ami to baba-r selun-e kokhono kokhono kaj korechi, oneker-i chul dari katanor por nokh kete dite hoto, emon ki bogol-r chul-o kamiye ditam. Tumi boso, ami tomar nokh porisker kore dichhi’. Mone mone bollam, sudhu nokh keno, tomake diye ar ki ki korai, dekhe jao. Jhatulal or trunk theke norun ber kore amar pase bose nokh kete dite laglo, ar ami ichhe kore or mukher kache bar bar amar bogol-ta niye gelam, jate or choke pore. Thik tai, jhatulal obak hoye amake bollo, ‘didi, tumi underarm clean koro na keno? Tumi chaile ami kore dite pari’. Ea to megh na chaitei jol, ghore baire sobai koutuhol niye dekhche. Ami bollam, ‘sudhu underarm noi, pubic hair-o clean korabo tomake diye, kintu condition holo tumi puro naked hoye kaj korbe. Ar sexually excited hoye penis erected hole, tar sasti holo, lottery kore je meyer nam uthbe, tar pussy lick kore orgasm kore dite hobe. Ki, sokole raji?’. Sobai mone korlo eber natok jombe, reality-te adult cinema dekha jabe. Kintu sokol-ke niras kore amar group-r meyera chara baki-der ghor theke ber kore dilam. Ora baire theke unki jhuki marte thaklo.
Amar pant vest khule puro langto hoye ekta chador-e ga dheke, cot-e hat tule sulam, ar jhatulal gamcha pore amar bogol-e hair removing cream lagiye poriskar korlo. Eber o gamcha khule amar hatu-r kache nil down hoye ektu ektu kore chador-ta opor dike tule amar thigh-r opor boslo. Or bara dekhe amader chokh kopale uther jogar, khara na hoyeo size prai 7’’ lomba ar 2’’ mota hobe, mane khara hole ki chehara nebe ta kolpona korteo bhoi hoi. Jhatulal or oi bisal bara-ta, bichi sudho amar dui thigh-r majhe bosiye rekhe kaj suru korlo. Jhatulal-r oi giant size instrument dekhe sob meyei mone mone chaichilo cheleta jano excited hoi, ar lottary-te tar nam-ta othe. Satti kotha bolte ki, onyo bondhu-ra to botei, amar nijer-o lov hochilo oi bara-ta mukhe niye chuste. Amar gud-r eto kache jhatulal-r bara-ta chilo je uttejona-te amar gud theke ros ber hochholo. Jhatulal sobe amar gud-ta gamcha diye muche, cream lagachhe, ar or bara-ta ektu ektu kore khara hochhe, emon samoy baire theke janla khule ekjon bollo je hostel warden ei dike asche. Taratari pat-tari gutiye, dress kore, amra sob meyera back gate diye paliye ladies hostel-r dike chutlam. Pore oneke jhatulal-r pechone lagleo, o amar bhalo bondhu hoye uthlo.
College-e porer samoy amar theke du bochor-r senior akash-r sange prem kortam. Akash pass kore ‘dinrat’ name ekta hotel-e chakri pelo. Ami chutite kolkata gele, akash-r songe ghora, movie dekha, resturent-e khayoa, disco-te eksonge nacha….ei bhabe din katchilo. Du bochor por ami pass kore kolkata-r barite chole elam, ar chakrir jonye apply korte laglam. Samoy pelei akash-r songe long drive-e berate jai. Ek chutir din ami ar akash beriyechi, sei jhatulal biswas-r songe dekha. O tohkono pass kore ni, kolkata-te vocational training-e eseche. Jhatulal-ke dekhei or sei birat bara-r kotha mone pore galo, akash-ke bollam, ‘o to amader common friend, cholo na niribili kothao giye aj saradin adda mari’. Akash ektu chinta kore bollo, ‘ek kaj kori, amar hotel-r chade amar ekta ghor achhe, emergency duty thakle okhane theke jai. Jaigata niribili, keu disturb korbe na’. Amra tin jone okhane gelam, ordinary ekta ghor, opore tiner shed, fan ekta achhe, kintu ghore gumot gorom. Akash ese-i jama genji khule, jhatulal keo jama khule boste bollo. Ora dujonei sudhu pant pore khate rest nite laglo. Ami long skirt ar top pore chilam, ghame sob bhije jachillo, ektu rag dekhiye bollam, ‘eta kintu bhari onyay, tomra chele bole khali ga hoye gele, ar ami gorome seddo hochhi. Ek jatra-i prithok phol’. Ora dujone lajja pelo, akash hese bollo, ‘ami bhison broad minded. Ekhane keu asbe na, ar amar kotha alada, tumi amar premik, tai jhatulal-r apotti na thakle tumio………’. Or kotha sesh korte na diye ami akash-r dike tere gelam. Jhatulal bollo, ‘neha-di, tumar to lajja poyer kotha noi, mone nei, college-e prothom din amake puro naked kore tomar pubic hair clean koriye chile?’. Akash moja pelo, haste haste bollo, ‘tumi to bhai lucky, kintu aj porjonto neha amake or nicher dike hat lagate-i dilo na’, ei bole dujon amar dike egiye elo. Amar mukh-ta lojja-te lal hoye gele-o, mone mone ekta adventure chaichilam.
Akash ar jhatulal oder pant gulo khule khali underwear pore, amake du dik theke chepe dhore, amar skirt ar top khule dilo. Ami tokhon sudhu bra ar panti pore oder sange adda marte boslam. College life-r purono diner ghotona gulo niye adda besh jome uthlo. Kotha-i kotha-i jhatulal-r sei bishal size-r bara-r prosongo uthlo, jeta dekhe ragging-r samoy meye gulo uttegito hoyechilo. ‘koi dekhi’ bole akash hotath uthe giye jhatulal-r underwear tene khule dilo, ar clean shaved jaiga theke or 7’’ lomba bara-ta pendulum-r moto dulte laglo. ‘khali amar-ta keno, tomader-tao dekhate hobe’ bole jhatulal akash ar amake-o puro naked kore dilo. Dekhlam akash or bara-r bal kate na, ekebare jungle, ar or bara besh choto, 6’’ moto hobe, ekhon seta khara hoye giyeche. Oi bishal jungle-r modhye or nunu-r moto bara-ta hariye giyeche. Ekdik theke bhaloi holo, ami mone mone thik kore phellam, akash-ke biye korar prosnoi nei, eto choto bara diye o amake satisfy korte parbe na. Ami fridge theke jol ante giye dekhlam okhane chocolate cream ar butter rakha achhe. Thanda jol kheye, oi duto niye khate ese boslam. Eber chocolate cream-ta bhalo kore amar guder charpase ar bhetore lagalam, tarpor jhatulal-ke suiye diye or bara-teo lagiye dilam. Akash jul jul kore dekhchilo, hoito o nijer bara-ta jhatulal-r bara-r sange compare kore inferiority complex-e bhugchilo.
Ami jhatulal-r opor ulto hoye 69 position-e sulam. Or mukher opor amar cream lagano gud-ta rekhe bisal bara-ta mukhe bhore chuste laglam, ar ota aste aste khara hoye bikot akar dharon korlo. Jhatulal-o amar gud-e jib dhukiye chocolate cream-r swad nite laglo. Akash-ke isara korlam amar pode butter dhukiye bhalo kore massage korte. Ki bujhlo ke jane, o butter niye khanik amar poder phuto-te dilo, khanik nijer bara-r matha-te lagalo, tarpor or bara-ta amar pode dhokanor chesta korlo. Kintu akash etoi uttejito chilo je, amar pode or bara theka-tei or discharge hoye galo amar pacha-r opor, tobe amount beshi noi. O nijei bhalo kore amar pacha muchiye diye keliye porlo khat-r ek kone. Edike ami ar jhatulal eke oporer gud o bara chuste-i thaklam. Jhatulal or du hat diye amar mai tipte tipte gud-r onek bhetor jib dhukiye emon narate laglo, ami aaaaaa….aaaa….kore sitkar korte korte or mukhei ek ghoti gud-r jol chere dilam, sei somoy jhatulal-o ar dhore rakhte na pere amar mukhe ek gada ros dhele mukh bhoriye dilo. Dujon-i netiye bichana-te akash-r pase goriye porlam. Akash etokhon ghumachillo, chomke uthe amader dike takiye kabla-r moto haslo. Tarpor nijer ghori-r dike takiye dekhlo onek bela hoyeche, tai akash shirt pant pore amake bollo,’darling, niche giye tomader lunch pathiye dichhi, chaile both of you enjoy further, amake duty join korte hobe’.
Akash chole galo, kintu amar mone jhor uthlo. Ami ekjon educated lady, aj bade kal chakri korbo, ba biye kore sanser patbo, kintu eta ami ki kore berachhi? Jhatulal-r giant size bara amar gud-e dhokanor ichhe-ta kichutei domon korte parchi na keno? Ami ki tobe oti kamuk hoye jachhi? Ekhon ki korbo ami? Chup kore chinta korchi dekhe, jhatulal bole uthlo, ‘neha-di, tumi akash-da ke bhalo baso, hoito future-e biye korbe. Amra bodhhoi ektu barabari kore phelechi, tai hoito akash-da amader phele chole galo. Ami jani amar ei penis meyeder kache khub-e attractive, tumi chaile aj ami tomake sextually satisfy korte pari, tobuo boli, je jinish tumi sara jiboner jonye pabe na, seta-r lov na thakai bhalo’. Gram-r chele, tobuo ki sohoj-e amar moner dondo bujhte parlo, ami kono kotha bolte parlam na.
Akash-ke mon theke ar bhalo lagchilo na, o jeno khub-i ordinary, aste aste or sange somporko-te ched porte laglo. Barite-i thaktam, majhe majhe chakri-r interview ditam. Kintu proper kolkata-te bhalo chance pachhilam na. Satyo kaka ma-ke bojhate laglo je ami naki ajkal prai monmora hoye thaki, ager moto baire baire ghuri na. Amar naki eber biyer boyes hoyeche, tai biye dilei amar mone ager moto phurti phire asbe. Ma satyo kaka-r kotha bhelte pare na, newspaper-e biyer ad deya suru holo, amar kono apotti tiklo na. Majhe majhe ekhono sei sondeho-ta moner modhye unki mare, asole amar baba ke? Tobe ki satyo kaka? Hobe hoito, je bhabe sob samoy amar bhalo mondo niye matha ghamai.
Biyer dekha sona cholte laglo, goutam-r sange biye final holo, kintu amader social biye holo 6 mas pore. Asole ei samoy-ta amra dujon-i cheye niyechilam eke opor-ke bhalo kore janer jonye. Amra samoy pelei ghurtam, koyekbar week end-e kache pithe berate-o giyechi, kintu goutam kokhono amake sexually involved hoyer jonye request kore ni. Ekdin amar jiboner sob kotha goutam-ke janalam, sobai jake amar baba bole jane se je amar baba noi, emon ki amar moner sondeho-r kotha-o share korlam. School life-e sedin apu-r sange uttegona bosoto sex kore amar virginity nosto hoyeche, tao janalam. Sob kotha bolte pere, amar mon-ta halka holo bote, abar bhoi-o lagchilo, sob sune o amake na refuse kore bose. Sedin janlam goutam koto-ta udar mon-r chele, ami je oke biswas kore sob satti kotha janiyechi, tate o khub khusi holo. Bollo sokoler jibon-i kono na kono ghotona thake, ar goutm-o virgin noi, ekbar college life-e ek kamuk boudi-r rupe mughdho hoye take chudechilo. Thik holo, phulsajja-r rate amra dujone amader purono sex experience share korbo.
Khub dhum dham kore biye hoye galo amar. Goutam choto belate-i or baba ma-ke hariyeche, manush hoyeche mama-r kache. Chakri na kore jokhon business suru korlo goutam, kichudin-r modhye ekta furnished flat kine phello, kintu biyer age porjonto mama-r bari-tei thakto. Amader fulsojja-o goutam-r mamar barite holo, sei rat-ta amra sudhu golpo kore katiye dilam, goutam amake anek ador korleo, kintu chode ni. Pordin amra natun flat-e chole gelam. Sekhane goutam tar notun bou-ke notun flat-e natun bhabe ekante upobhog korlo. Sei chotobela theke kotojon amar sarir-ta niye khela koreche, sekhane kono bhalobasha-r chonya chilo na, chilo khali kamona. Ei prothom ekjon-ke pelam, je bhalobasha diye amar deho-ke uttegito kore seshe chudlo, tao amar permission niye. Nijeke dhonyo mone holo.